What could you say if I commanded you:
“Go and look for it NOW!”
An obvious rejoinder is:
“Look for WHAT?!”
To which I’d say:
“Exactly; you’ll know when you find it.”
People who seek, seek to find the unknowable.
Truth starts out in the dark. It shines once you find it, which is how you know you found it.
Self-growth is like that. Your dark is where you have no awareness of how you are generating the problems you are experiencing.