Last week in BodyChance, a woman wanted to explore bending.

It seemed like a simple activity. Even a little boring if I'm honest. Ho hum.

All about understanding the use of your legs: bending hips, knees and ankles. Blah, blah. She was interested, because when she bends, she hurts her back. She wanted to find an easier way. In her mind, this was a "physical" activity, not a "mental" one.

"What's the situation?" I asked.

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It's been a long time since my last blog, and that is mainly because I have been devoting my time to helping individuals who are already in ATSuccess. I am really excited about what is happening, and boldly predict that this new generation of teachers can reshape the way our profession thinks about itself.

I recently underwent full anaesthetic for an operation, and the aftermath was weeks of regressive behaviour which had me wondering what the hell was going on…

Postoperative cognitive dysfunction is a known phenomenon whereby higher cognitive function is slow to return, often taking weeks before full functionality is restored.

Was that what was happening to me?

I was requested to write a blog about discipline i.e. using time effectively.

The two words in that previous phrase - "time" and "effectiveness" are two of three concepts essential to getting to that place of "discipline".

Discipline itself is almost a dirty word, because it implies you need to be doing something other than what you are doing. i.e. you must "discipline" your Self to do this, instead of doing that. Right?

This is the text of a letter I wrote recently to a friend who wondered why I seem to actively offend so many people in the AT world with my position on Tablework. This is what I wrote back...

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Dear Friend (who shall remain anonymous),

The tablework/constructive rest thing is an important component of my whole sales and marketing thrust - the idea is to do what the students wants, not what you prescribe.

I've made a rash of poor business decisions lately - in the process creating a hole in the ground into which I fell. The "hole" is my mood, my ability to act being suffocated by trashing my heart and sinking into depression.

A wonderful aspect of Alexander's discovery is how it demonstrates an ancient esoteric adage: “As above, so below.” Macrocosmos is the same as microcosmos.

Yesterday I went into my local Mac shop to complain about a DVD drive that was repeatedly rejecting my rented movie disc. I had had the same problem with another drive of the exact same kind recently, so I was all fired up to get them to acknowledge the problem and fix it.

The way my life has created itself leaves me more apart from my two daughters than physically present. My relationship to this reality has been a challenge. When I arrive back in Japan from a visit to them in Australia, I usually awaken the first day in my apartment with a vague sense of loss and longing. At first I didn't identify it clearly, then…

"OH. I miss my daughters."

Then I remembered a principle my teacher taught me: whenever I am feeling lonely, it is based on a mind that has drifted from the present to imaginary circumstances.

As T. S. Elliot put it:

Anyone could copy what I have done in Japan. Why doesn't anyone do that?

Because it is too dam hard. Right now, I am planning on building a new biz in Japan and I constantly go into overwhelm: How will I do it? Who do I ask for help? How do I convince people about my idea? These are all questions that seek answers, and while in the midst of asking these questions, I easily become emotionally frightened and panicked.