I have been struck recently by the lucky Yoga niche connections Cecile has been documenting for us in ATSuccess Village. Angela, on our Pro Skype sessions, has been experiencing the same thing in her niche in the UK. People contacting them both with work requests - wonderful.

I am asking - are they lucky?

Depression is like a frozen shoulder - a dull, continuous condition that functions like a black hole, nothing escapes. No insight, no nuance - nothing.

I awoke depressed this morning, just as the weather seemed dull and overcast. Depression is defiant to my analysis. Firstly, it's a challenge to recognise it's true cause. For that I trace back over my previous day until I find the moment, the comment, the thought, the situation that triggered it's onset.

Secondly, it appears to have no nuance, no differentiation.

Less is more: this is an expression that every Alexander Technique teacher is comfortable with. We understand it. Dammit - we teach it! And yet, today I wonder if I have really even begun to grasp how profound and society-changing this concept can be?

I still have a long way to go - how about you?

I know you don't know me.

That's a comfort. Nothing you say can hurt me, yet I am still curious. Curiosity is the saviour of arrogance. Do I know? Well, let's hear your opinion and there's no risk in that, no pain. Just wonder, and my opportunity to grow.

I've been asking a lot of questions about BodyChance these days: how about your practise, your biz? I am discovering questions open doors, so start with the big one.

Start with your why. What motivates you to be in this profession?

I have been through many whys.

Do you make lists?

It's could be because you are greedy - I bet you never thought of it like that before?

For me it's like this: I want to do a lot - that's where my greed comes in. It starts becoming too much, so I think - make a list. Prioritise it all. That's the usual approach, right?

Except the greed stays, my list gets longer, you keep piling it on. No relief.

All my pain is selfish - I discovered that again today. Per usual, just a glimmer - but a liberating glimmer that I want to underline by writing about it…

My hurt, whenever it arises, feels to me like it is because of you. There was an action from your side, a reaction on my side, and I give it a false linear causality: you affected me.

I love being distracted by silly little things.

Filling out a bank form and sending it off. Cleaning my candle stand of wax. Wiping away those annoying smears near my kitchen trash - all worthy causes in their own right, but totally useless to my mission. I get even more keen when I have a lot on my plate. Hmmm.

Why do I do them? Why do you do yours? (Or have you got all this figured out already?)

I am having a radical morning.

I am asking some "What if…?" questions about the use of my time. Based on the idea that 80% of my pleasure and accomplishment comes from 20% of my time. The rest of my time is wasted on things that don't nurture what matters to me most.

Is it true?

You want try it. Here's what you do:

Make a list of things that absorb a lot of your time. Don't restrict it to your biz, make it about you, your life, how you fill it day by day. What eats up your time?

Back in Japan and missing my children already.

What is that lonely feeling? I seem to notice it first thing in the morning, as I go through my morning routine. I think of them, I miss them, I feel lonely.

It's a longing for something, and it appears to be outside of me. My kids: that can solve my lowliness right? Can that be real? As a Buddhist I know it is delusional thinking to seek something "out there" to solve the problem of my "right here" emotions.

Katie puts it this way: "When you're over there with them, there's no-one home for you."

Realizations are like jewels - precious things, and too few of them. But a realization is much, much more. It is abundant energy: it is a force to move you from apathy and emptiness to action and joy.

Why so few? Why so rare?

We live too much thinking: “I know.” Speaking for me, I am always right. I always know. I am built that way - it is biological as much as it is psychological. We have our right, and we stick to it. Alexander hit upon that - it was his breakthrough discovery, and the most misunderstood and abused.